The true side....

This week did quite a lot of birthday celebration for collegue........suddenly reminds me of those sad birthday moments........I hardly look up for birthdays since then, especially my own. I think in this world, I'm the only one that wish that no one will ever remember my birthday. May be I could learn from my trainer to take leave on that day..........

My trainer have been going overseas for training.......just only come back on tuesday. When most of the trainee left after work that day, only left me the only junior there and the rest are seniors because I'm waiting for my friend. What suprise me is that my trainer thought that I'm going to stay back late, so he distributed the souvenir that he bought during training because he's rushing back home as well. When he reach my area, he skip thru me, only pass the souvenir to those senior sitting beside me. Actually, I really felt very embarrassing that time, I just quickly pack my things and leave the office as soon as possible. Feeling a bit angry the same time actually.Eventhough my friend haven't come yet but I just felt like wanna leave that place quickly.

While waiting at the lobby, I was thinking for myself. All these anger is unnecessary if he doesn't feel guilty for what he had done. It had also let me see clearly the other view of his true nature. I just feel bad for the rest of the trainees because none of them knew about this and I don't like to talk bad about ppl and spread what ever that happen that day. All of them still eager to celebrate the trainer's birthday that coming friday. Hope that it'll increase his guilt feeling.

God always let me see clearly everyone's true nature......really thankful for that. At least I won't be so innocently worship some ppl that I thought is a good leader.

Miserable

This lately my blood pressure really going to raise like mad........don't worry it's not hypertension. It's just that certain ppl were making my life miserable.

Last week a new worker come, and of course I have to be the one to teach her all the things because no one else wanted to teach her. So of course I'll be teaching her things that I practice all these while.........then after finish explaining everything from A-Z, here come these ppl come and complain about this and that, so making her more confuse. It's not only her, I myself also confuse.........so I don't wanna bother about it anymore, as long as I did my part, whether right or not according to some ppl I also not going to bother about it. Going to use the 'I don't care' attitude.....or else later i really end up having hypertension......touch wood.

Today had a review with our CEO, of course it's such a waste of time......but then still have to listen to their boring presentation. In the hall, I know I'm searching for someone..........but what am I hoping for ?? Of course I saw him but then what I get from all these?? Only disappointment.......eventhough we meet again at lif while on the way back, but I look like invisible woman, he just look thru me and talk to the staff behind me.

Why I always fall so easily for someone?? A big lesson in the past doesn't seems to be effective to make me aware of the same mistake I going to repeat. Is there anyway that I could really make this 'love' thingy to be out of my life forever??

Miserable

This lately my blood pressure really going to raise like mad........don't worry it's not hypertension. It's just that certain ppl were making my life miserable.

Last week a new worker come, and of course I have to be the one to teach her all the things because no one else wanted to teach her. So of course I'll be teaching her things that I practice all these while.........then after finish explaining everything from A-Z, here come these ppl come and complain about this and that, so making her more confuse. It's not only her, I myself also confuse.........so I don't wanna bother about it anymore, as long as I did my part, whether right or not according to some ppl I also not going to bother about it. Going to use the 'I don't care' attitude.....or else later i really end up having hypertension......touch wood.

Today had a review with our CEO, of course it's such a waste of time......but then still have to listen to their boring presentation. In the hall, I know I'm searching for someone..........but what am I hoping for ?? Of course I saw him but then what I get from all these?? Only disappointment.......eventhough we meet again at lif while on the way back, but I look like invisible woman, he just look thru me and talk to the staff behind me.

Why I always fall so easily for someone?? A big lesson in the past doesn't seems to be effective to make me aware of the same mistake I going to repeat. Is there anyway that I could really make this 'love' thingy to be out of my life forever??

Miserable

This lately my blood pressure really going to raise like mad........don't worry it's not hypertension. It's just that certain ppl were making my life miserable.

Last week a new worker come, and of course I have to be the one to teach her all the things because no one else wanted to teach her. So of course I'll be teaching her things that I practice all these while.........then after finish explaining everything from A-Z, here come these ppl come and complain about this and that, so making her more confuse. It's not only her, I myself also confuse.........so I don't wanna bother about it anymore, as long as I did my part, whether right or not according to some ppl I also not going to bother about it. Going to use the 'I don't care' attitude.....or else later i really end up having hypertension......touch wood.

Today had a review with our CEO, of course it's such a waste of time......but then still have to listen to their boring presentation. In the hall, I know I'm searching for someone..........but what am I hoping for ?? Of course I saw him but then what I get from all these?? Only disappointment.......eventhough we meet again at lif while on the way back, but I look like invisible woman, he just look thru me and talk to the staff behind me.

Why I always fall so easily for someone?? A big lesson in the past doesn't seems to be effective to make me aware of the same mistake I going to repeat. Is there anyway that I could really make this 'love' thingy to be out of my life forever??

Severe Communication Breakdown

Lately couldn't think what to update here.....a lot had happen but don't know where to start. Now is Hari Raya celebration, I took one day off last friday just to clear my leave........actually to clear my head as well.

I don't know why a lot ppl always misunderstood me, I'm already tired of straighten things up. Is it that I'm passing the wrong message around?? Eventhough I hardly express myself??
Another problem is that I always have communication breakdown......I wonder is it me or the opposite ppl getting it wrong. Besides, some also hardly listens to me especially whenever I speak to Joe Ann, I noted that I haven't even finish 10% of what I wanted to say but she already not listening. I also felt stupid to even continue to talk to her......Lesson no. 1: I should only speak to ppl that really wanted to listen to me.

Then during lunch, some of my collegue asked me something, I haven't got the chance to answer, someone 'kindly' had already answer for me. When I wanted to defend myself on that someone's statement, it make me look more bad and rude. Lesson no. 2: The best to do during moments like this is to just smile and continue eating your lunch. Who bothers what you going to say......

Then on friday, my dad mention that wanted to go to my uncle's house for dinner. But I don't feel like going, besides I need to fetch my bro later. But he insist to want me to go by saying that he'll pick him up on the way there. So he called up my bro, suprisingly saying that I'll go fetch him later. Ok which part of the conversation did I miss?? So I end up back at home and waiting for my bro. Lesson no. 3: Always insist to do things your own way which is always the best way.

Talking about communication breakdown.......even talking in the same language something like this will definitely occur. Sometimes I wish that I was a baby back then, at least someone can got it right what I actually wanted.

No Pain No Gain

No Pain No Gain… Accept the Pain, Future will be Fruitful…

Don't feel the work you are doing is pain, because there will be always a reason for that pain or work.

So face the pain, for the pain you face, there will be definitely happiness a head.

AL tomorrow.....yeah

Finally it's thursday.......mostly ppl looking forward to fridays. For me this week is different, because I on leave again this friday. Haha.......this weekend is Hari Raya, so monday is replacement holiday, so meaning I have a continuous 4 days break. So happy about it.......

Most ppl surely will go back to their hometown, but for me who is born and staying at 'hometown' now, there's not much travelling needed. Actually really admire those staying else where......at least can be out of this busy city and enjoy a peaceful rest with clean air and nice scenery.

This few days, too 'lucky' to have 'interesting' case needed to do, my coutersigner really going to 'love' me for it.......haha. But actually it's a good exposure for me, to let me try out so many different type of cases before release into actual workflow. So she will be celebrating tomorrow as I'm not around to bring her 'good luck'......lol.

Yesterday went to Hapen Cafe for lunch, today went to Tai Thong.......don't know what's wrong with we all lately. Spending money as if more is dropping from sky.....Boon even busy taking all our single photo......he say is for our own good. I know what he had in mind, of course I'm not that interested.....may be is because his friends should be something like him. Haha.....he sure going to kick my a** for saying that.

No where is safe

Yesterday having terrible monday blues..........may be slept too much during weekends. Today felt much better.

Yesterday stay at office til 6 something due to the traffic jam, I prefer to stay and do some work than to waste time stuck in the car and not moving an inch. My trainer very suprise to see me still working.......he message me and told me that I can do it tomorrow and asked me to go back. Hahaha.........I think he's the only trainer that don't allow trainee to stay back so late. Actually is quite true, it's no longer that safe here, especially at night for a girl to walk alone to the parking lot and drive. But then I don't have other choice as none of my collegue stay near my area, so it's really quite hard for me to actually find someone to car pool with. So what I could do is just try to park somewhere safer and make sure that wherever I go is safe.

Since I'm a local here......born and live here for my whole life......I know when and where I should be alert. Sometimes situation will force us to be independent and mature........depends on how much exposure you encouter. I still remember once during schooling time, I walk back by myself and an Indian guy riding a bicycle nearly molest me.......luckily I dodge in time......I couldn't imagine anything worse can happen. I have no other choice to use other alternative as that route is the only way to go back my place......the only thing I could do is be alert and pray god I won't see him again. But luckily I really never saw him again..........whenever drove pass that area, it'll always remind me to be alert always.

Actually I even thought of getting a bf to accompany me that time.......haha so immature thought. Nowadays, it's not that easy to find someone that really care about you that much.........so like what I always say it's better to depend on yourself.

Gosh....

Friday took one day off.....just to clear my leave. It's damn boring for me to stay at home but then I have no other plans as my friends were all busy working. So I just stay at home helping out a little but most of the time is just taking nap......lol.

So now I'm having headache......may be slept too much. Serves me right.......hopefully it'll go off tomorrow.

Sedentary lifestyle doesn't really suit me......may be I worry too much about my work that causes the headache. Tomorrow will be a very long day......I think better bring some panadol just in case.

Common sense ppl !!!

Yesterday, suddenly Boon invite me into chat room........at first I thought is about the Cameron trip that he mention 2 weeks ago. But actually it isn't..........it's about Lily's birthday which is at end of this month. So they were discussing about the present for her.Actually they had already decided what to buy before inviting me into the conversation.........now they invite me just asking to share.

What really shocking me is the present they decide to buy for her..........it's the Bioessense eye bag vanishing serum.

Isn't it weird to buy that as someone's present?? So as usual I become the bad person..........I disagree to buy that for her. I know that Joe Ann also disagree with that, but of course she pretended don't mind about it. Lin said that Lily wanted that and asked her where could she get that...........

I know she wanted that .......... isn't it better that she bought it herself all these skin product ?? Besides, if we bought for her........it's like all of us knew that she have terrible eye bags.

I really don't know what is on their mind sometimes........don't they have common sense ??

Starting my engine......picking up quite slow

There's this guy which I think started work recently.........his looks remind me of my project supervisor during uni time, Dr Cheah. He doesn't really look like him.......but then I don't know why it always link back to him in my mind. I bump into this guy quite a lot times during this two days.......ya only 2 days no matter in or out of the company building. Both of us in different floor.......but I don't know why always bump into him. Every time saw him only reminds me of how bad my project supervisor treat me back then........hopefully I won't meet him tomorrow onwards.

Today finally did our medical assessment and I scored 92%.......haha so happy. Finally that's the last test that we needed to do.......so now onwards only need to concentrate on the cases. Bin gave us try the medical cases from today onwards......due to the limited cases available......all of us only have .........1 case each.........haha. But mine is very damn difficult..........first I need to update the data that the data entry staff left out........so weird......how can they miss out such a big portion. It's also a good practice to polish my data entry skill......lol. Then the hardest part come into picture.........the medical part. Took me nearly 1 hour to process that case. May be I too long didn't do case..........so picking up very slow :P

Wedding bells

Ding dong.........wedding bells ringing.........haha of course is not my wedding......how could I get married when I'm still single now......lol

Actually is my superior's........today she show us her wedding photo.......all taken so nice and sweet. This is the day when the gals will look the best in their lifetime.

Of course like others.......my heart is itching but then could only hope on fate........

Gambate

Hhmm.....lately something wrong with the modem. But now is working well........nearly couldn't live without internet........haha actually not that serious........lol. But manage to settle a few stuff with all those free time other than sitting in front of the pc.

Oh ya.....to update latest happening. Last saturday was my first working day during weekends.......not as exciting that I thought it will be. Instead, I nearly bored to death.........this month end very few case come in. That day I only did 4 case.......yes is only 4, normal day should be 168 cases.......but luckily I still can claim plus lunch is provided. This 4 case is really worth more than it should be.......haha.

Joe Ann also come to work as well that weekend.......but what I don't understand is that she can drive all by herself and not fetching her friend who is living in the same condo and working at the same place and time. I don't know what is in her mind, but one thing I know is that she's really not a good friend. I just pity her friend who have to walk a distance before taking a bus to reach the office alone. Ever since enter this company, I just felt that more of her ugly sides reveal.......I think I should really stay a distance away from her, as I also not sure whether I was treated as a 'friend' or not. I don't think she even need me as she has Boon and Peng........I wonder when only they'll see her true side. But then it's none of my business..........haha.

This wednesday have a medical test............I need to study for it as I don't think I'm that lucky to have anyone to help me. May be Joe Ann will suddenly remember me as I was useful to her for the test.........but then of course she has to beg me first........haha.