Controlling

Usually I very afraird to go out and hang out with my friends, just because that my grandmother restrict me from that. Yes.....it's my grandmother, as my parents are not a control freak like my grandmother.

So I'm the very well known faithful girl back then, thanks to my grandmother. But nowadays, I don't bother about it anymore, it's not that my grandmother pass away or what, she's still very healthy and conscious for a 80 year old lady. It just that I need to socialise......I'm not young anymore.....this is one point that my grandmother doesn't seem to understand. One of the reason why my 27 year old brother still single and never had a girl friend before is that he's also under my grandmother's "control". Funny thing is that my grandmother asking him why doesn't have a girl friend.....duhh. How was he going to meet ppl when at home there's a control freak that restrict from going out besides going to work.

I don't want to be like that and most importantly is that I really hate being locked up. I'll do anything just only to be set free. Suddenly remind me back in primary school, there's a class trip to Langkawi, and I was only 10 years old back then. My good friend going to the trip also......so like any normal kid, of course I'm dying to go as well. So I beg my dad to let me go........my grandma 100% don't want to let me go may be I'm too small that time.....I don't even bother about her.......haha. I beg, I refuse to eat and then I use my secret weapon - my tears. My dad always have a soft spot for that......and then he finally agreed. Haha...... when think back, I felt very funny. I'm really quite brave back then.

I know that my grandmother stops us from hanging out too much is fear that we might mix with bad people and got influenced by them. But most importantly is that she worry about our safety as the world is not so safe anymore. I'm a grown up now, I know the limitation and I always inform them where and who I hanging out with. May be her traditional thoughts is that girls are safer to stay at home, little that she know that nowadays girls are more independent and protective of herself.........from simple pepper spray to taekwando. I think I should really find a day to brainwash her with all this........haha.

But today I really enjoy my outing with Yeen, Peng and Ling. I think that's the last time I'm going to eat a 'all you can eat' sushi set............my stomach til now is still very bloated. It almost feel like being pregnant.......haha. I think by eating something you like is one of the way to release stress......so long didn't really eat this full.........but I think need to control my diet and exercise a bit from today onwards.....haha. Please don't invite me to any sushi shop this few weeks as I might have temporary phobias.......lol.