Suddenly this question pop out again.....yes I'm concern about my status but then what else could I do besides ignore it and concentrate on work instead? Yes I know I sound like no life, but what else could I do now? Post up my picture and asking for a relationship from the internet? To others, this may be one of the best way. However it's the boudaries within me that's so hard to over come. It's just that I don't trust love over the net.

Will there be love for me then if this continues? Or should I just concentrate work and earn more money to support my own life?

Love.....

Is a very weird thing....

Love hardly surrounds me, and I'm dying to get more love out from everyone.......eventhough there are moments I'm tired of looking for it. But then I will still looking for it after rest for a window period.....sometime end up giving more love to myself in a more pamper and materialise way.

Some people were just full of love from everyone, sometimes overflooded. Do they require to look for it? From my view is no, they seem to be having angel luck and cupid likes to knock on their door more than mine.

A few of these people when all of the sudden loss all their love in a very short period, they couldn't live a single second of their live without any love and will do anything just to get back, which includes their life as well. But is it love worth dying for ??

Concluded love is a very complex thing......no one could really understand how it works

Not sure whether my feelings were true but even if it's true, what could I do? Now actually I really can't differenciate whether do I really have feelings for him or I'm just being lonely for too long? May be I'm just thinking too much......should stop thinking anymore.

Today finally can rest.....eventhough the whole day I only manage to clear 9 case, but I don't even care. I had already did my best.....

Sometimes really don't understand what's the higher management is thinking.......am I worrying too much?? What's the use if I'm the only one worrying?? I just couldn't imagine what next week will be like.

By then, only miracle could help us.

Why sould I worry...

Appraisal just over few days ago, I guess it's quite shocking for everyone to see me in the room for 2 hours. When came out, everyone been asking me why so long. Of course I'm not telling them what's going on inside. I'm not like them, comment all the good stuff, saying how 'good' the superior management are. I just let it all out.....I trust my team leader wouldn't spread it to the other colleagues. But for my assistant manager, I doubt whether she'll keep it P&C (which she suppose to), but anyway I don't even bother. If she spread it all out to others, I could only say I won't respect her as a AM.

My leader is quite suprise to heard all those comment for me, I guess that I've been too quiet and just digest the whole problem myself whether I like it or not. Besides, can't blame him too because he's not around most of the time, not like my AM, just turn a deaf ear to whatever she knows. I don't like the way she do things, she told me it's a small matter. I'm not sure whether is it she have a very narrow mind, or I'm just thinking too much. But all these small matter collectively is the main cause for most of my friends to tender their resign letter in the first place. I guess that to hire new people and train all over again for a few months is easier for her than to keep potential staff back.

I know she's going to hate me more for this, I not going to bother whether these were going to affect my bonus. I know what am I made of, if she rate me badly I could only say sorry for the company for forcing another potential worker off to another company.

Currently the company is overflooded with cases, I'm now only waiting it to hit the threshold so that I could open the champagne to celebrate that we are all drowned.

De-stressing

Been quite some time abandoned this blog.... Been quite busy, may be overexhausted from everything that's going on in my life.....

Quite a lot has happen.....car broke down and went to work shop TWICE, not to mention purse was drained completely as well.....being sent to death at the main HQ for 1 wk and experience lots of culture shock......no one bothers to give me the award which I'm entitled for and I need to ask from them with a very thick face......work load increase but salary remains......going to lots of places like P.Ketam, Melaka........eating a lots of buffets but still healthy, not like some ppl suffer from terrible diarrhoe..........company flooded with cases but no one's doing it..........

All those bad experience, let it flow and I don't want to mention much about it ever again. Just hope for a better day from now onwards.......Currently de-stressing.........