My EQ is worst than what I imagine......
In working life, I'm so left out. Yesterday everyone knew there's a meeting (but no annoucement or email was sent) and nearly all heading towards the room already. I'm still so 'indulge' in my work that I didn't notice everyone is moving towards that one same direction. Until one of the senior finally notice why I'm not moving at all, he asked me why you're still here. I don't even know what's happening until he told me to hurry for that meeting. Even my lunchmate didn't inform me about the meeting........this is not the first time to be the very last to know what's going on.
Most of the senior there doesn't seem to like me as I'm not so good like others in 'bodek' them. Some seniors even purposely make it look worse by giving out rewards to those who 'bodek' them so much.......obviously showing that I'm not part of it. In other people's mind, they might thought that I'm so proud and selfish and don't want to offer any help to the seniors. But the fact is, we're not allowed to simply help someone out as we need to ask permissions from Team Leaders. But who cares about the fact?!
Even in my personal life.......just now saw one of my coursemate online in MSN. Of course like usual will be chatting to follow up what's the latest updates from them. But the only thing that she discuss about is when am I going to treat her. We're both working and obviously my salary was not much differs from hers. What makes her think that I should treat her? I just end the conversation......because it's going no where.
Now where's the problem? Is the problem with me or is just that my life were surrounded by so many sick ppl.....
In working life, I'm so left out. Yesterday everyone knew there's a meeting (but no annoucement or email was sent) and nearly all heading towards the room already. I'm still so 'indulge' in my work that I didn't notice everyone is moving towards that one same direction. Until one of the senior finally notice why I'm not moving at all, he asked me why you're still here. I don't even know what's happening until he told me to hurry for that meeting. Even my lunchmate didn't inform me about the meeting........this is not the first time to be the very last to know what's going on.
Most of the senior there doesn't seem to like me as I'm not so good like others in 'bodek' them. Some seniors even purposely make it look worse by giving out rewards to those who 'bodek' them so much.......obviously showing that I'm not part of it. In other people's mind, they might thought that I'm so proud and selfish and don't want to offer any help to the seniors. But the fact is, we're not allowed to simply help someone out as we need to ask permissions from Team Leaders. But who cares about the fact?!
Even in my personal life.......just now saw one of my coursemate online in MSN. Of course like usual will be chatting to follow up what's the latest updates from them. But the only thing that she discuss about is when am I going to treat her. We're both working and obviously my salary was not much differs from hers. What makes her think that I should treat her? I just end the conversation......because it's going no where.
Now where's the problem? Is the problem with me or is just that my life were surrounded by so many sick ppl.....
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